A few things I've learned since my last post (Or, things I took away from the
1- A "six" on the homicidal feelings chart in group therapy from the woman sitting next to you will bring about more anxiety than say the person to the left of you who habitually steals people's shoes.
2- If you think it's hard to fall asleep at night when you're at home, it is even more difficult to do so when someone checks on you every fifteen minutes throughout the evening to make sure you have not been killed in your sleep. My reasons here are twofold. One "the check" involves the need to open the door, let in light, and shut it, which is obnoxious. And two because this has obviously been a problem in the past, and that's not a bedtime story I want to think about right before my attempt at shut-eye.
3- Psychiatrists (or at least mine) in the hospital don't believe in post-partum depression for women who had their babies a whole six months ago. It has to be something else. Something bigger. More permanent. Fixable? Doubtful.
4-Hovering while you pee is exercise.
5- The institution is not a relaxing get away for individuals who suffer from severe anxiety and/or panic.
6-If you can't laugh about the ridiculous you have bigger problems.
7- Individuals receiving treatment in the institution are some of the kindest and most non-judgemental people in all the world.
8- The state of our mental health system is so abominable that I cannot even find the right words.
And so I'm back. And I'd say none the wiser, but really I don't think that's true. I learned much during my short hospital stint. Mostly about compassion and kindness and the strength of the human spirit. But also about keeping a close eye on my shoes.